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People ask me, “How Did You Know You Wanted to be a Doctor?” And the answer truthfully is- I didn’t.
I never WANTED to be a doctor. That would be too bold for a C-average kid to imagine. It might be fine for the valedictorian or the genius that aced the SAT’s years before they were [...]

You are looking for the positive.
You see it in glimpses
Through the tears.  And the tears keep coming. Through the night. You wake up and cry through the shower, through the drive to work and God help you sporadically through the office. You choke back the tears when they ask you how he is. Fine you [...]

I’m writing this a few days ahead because it’s my birthday weekend and I refuse to sit on the computer when I could be connecting in real life.
Little Miss Blue eyes is home sick from school.Yep. The GI bug crossed to her! Sorry baby.
Feeling better right now. Cried this morning and wrote a mildly depressing [...]

It’s my Twin’s birthday today. Mine was yesterday.
Being in Guam means that for the first time in our lives we celebrate our birthdays on separate days. Or maybe I should just think that we celebrate it twice.
I always knew I was a twin and proud of it. We don’t look so much alike [...]

I’m writing this early. I’ll be celebrating tomorrow. Enjoying the family.
I still feel like I’m 12 years old. Insecure and bumbling about. But I’m not. 12 that this is.
And then the right mood hits, the vitamins or maybe the extra sleep kicks in and I’m happy and confident.
I used to wish over my birthday candles [...]

The rain poured out of the sky heavily, drenching and obscuring everything in it’s path. With the littlest two in the car we cruised down a few houses down to pick up Little Miss Blue Eyes at her bus stop.
Bumpity Bump Bump. Bumpity Bump Bump.
Uh Oh. That didn’t sound right.
“Stay right here, ” I cautioned [...]

What is it about the pretty layers of moss that I find so appealing?
We were making our way out from an elephant preserve when I saw this just by the entry way.
Reminds me of tromping through the forests when I was a kid. The color green just makes you feel good.

Unable to sleep I crept into Smiling Boy’s room last night and stood there in the dark contemplating folding all 5 feet 8 inches of me into his toddler bed.
Which BTW says very explicitly  “Do not Exceed 50 lbs”.  I was a little worried since I haven’t been 50 pounds in over 30  years but [...]

Not much will keep me out of the clinic. I even drag my sick children in and have them sleep aside my computer. They get to drift into dreamland while I float in and out of the patient’s room. I can check on them all the while I get my work done. And when I’m [...]

We went back to the doctor’s office and I voiced my concern.
“Does he look pale to you?”
This has become an obsession with me- Daily I ask my husband, my girl friends,  my neighbors and now the pediatrician.
“No really … look closer. He seems pale right? His color is off.”
Most of them look at me and [...]