Bali Lessons- Intro
Posted by Dr. Cason on Monday, September 8th, 2008
Back from Bali just a week now.
To say that I needed a vacation is like saying I needed water or food. It was obvious and not a fact to be quibbled over except of course to me.
You see running around with frenetic energy is what I do. I’ve perfected it. Even when my body is still, my brain isn’t. Gotta do! Gotta be! Gotta! Gotta! Gotta! I’ve been like this ever since I decided to be a doctor and walked down the premed path.
Those of you who don’t know me might be surprised to find that I was an average student in high school. I barely squeaked by with a C average. Once in college, being a doctor was not even on my radar. But somehow on a long bus ride in North Island New Zealand, I came across the conclusion that I would take the risk. I would change my college major for the upteenth time and go for it. Medicine was for me!
Yanking up my GPA was of imminent concern and everything fell by the way side. It meant pulling all nighters and acing class after class. It meant never letting my guard down because I just might fall from the top and chaos would ensure.
That fear of getting behind and then not reaching “My Goals” has never truly left. Even I will admit I’m not quite sure what “My Goals” are anymore or if they are entirely necessary.
I’m on an island- Guam and the hyperventilating pace of general practice is still there albeit for shorter hours.
There’s the kids and baths and homework. Oh and the toilets and the laundry and the dinner night after night that you must absolutely shop for. Every day begins at 4:30 am and ends at 10:30 or 11:00pm.
There are posts to be written, blogs to be visited, sites to be stumbled. There are the photos that are taken and the ones that are waiting to be taken. People to call and emails to return. Presents bought and waiting to go out to the mail- but somehow never making it. It goes on and on you begin to dream about that one day.
That one day where you’ll be all caught up. You start to fantasize what a great feeling that will be. Cause then you could really enjoy life.
It’s been a week since I got back from Bali. I took that vacation and I got that feeling.
And I’m not even close to being caught up.
Filed in My Life,Self Improvement | 8 responses so far
kcinnovaon 08 Sep 2008 at 11:34 pm 1Caught up? Nah. But rested? I hope you are rested!
kcinnovas last blog post..Traveling with kids
Kathleenon 09 Sep 2008 at 12:43 am 2SHEILA – Slow down girl, you are moving too fast. You are there – you are the wonderful doctor you worked hard to become (I so admire you for this), the wonderful mother, the wonderful wife, and definitely the help and accomplished person with your blogs you seek. You can relax – we all give you permission to do this before your have a heart attack.
BTW, being that wonderful daughter is very special too. You have achieved that as well. Guess I had better give my Mom a call today or I may lose my status in that area.
Have a blessed day – you bless all of us with your beautiful photography and wonderful blog.
Kylaon 09 Sep 2008 at 2:28 am 3I am the same way! Go, go, go! I hardly know what to do with myself when there isn’t something to be done.
Every once in a while it is really nice to let it all go and just BE.
Kylas last blog post..You’ll Never Guess!
Nikkion 09 Sep 2008 at 2:40 am 4I can definitely relate to the “go, go, go” mentality. Danger was born on a Friday and on Sunday I made the husband take us out for Mother’s Day breakfast and go to the mall as Danger needed some premie clothes if I wanted her to wear anything that fit. Yep, I’m crazy like that but you, YOU are even crazier! SLEEP WOMAN!! You should really SLEEP! It does great things for you! I promise! Maybe I just say that as I am currently getting absolutely no sleep myself! Meh!
Karl - Your Work Happiness Matterson 09 Sep 2008 at 6:12 am 5I feel the same way. Almost as if I’m just a puppet master trying to get my puppet’s arms, which are only moved by strings, to lift a glass of water.
We will never get it all done. The hope is that we can just enjoy what we do get done and be grateful that we have another day to acomplish great work.
Are you going to post any pictures from Bali? I’ve never been, would love to see what it’s like.
Karl – Your Work Happiness Matterss last blog post..6 Things You Should Never Say to Your Boss
Dr. Casonon 09 Sep 2008 at 8:10 am 6Kcinnova- Rested yes.
Kathleen- The chest pains have eased.
Kyla- I keep listening to “Let it Be” and it helps.
Nikki-Sleep is bliss.
Karl- I’ve posted a few but I working on a photos essay! Soon!
Linda Abbiton 10 Sep 2008 at 3:53 pm 7I’ve given up on every being caught up in my life! And for the most part, I don’t let that “always behind” feeling bug me, but sometimes it does.
As you well know, life’s short, so I’d rather write, dance, be with family and friends, travel, all the good stuff.
So what if my closets never get cleaned out and my house is not spotless. Yes, I probably entertain less as a result of my messy house, but so what, as long as I can be with people I love and have fun!!
White Hot Magikon 12 Sep 2008 at 3:05 am 8Ahh the frenzy of it all. I love the pictures, they are like a vacation for me. I don’t get to travel much and love getting a taste of life vicariously through you.